senioritis has officially started for me...and i have nothing set for post-college...oh dear.

I've been so restless of late, and have been unable to study. I'm super behind, yet again. That seems to be the theme of my life. I've taken a week-week and a half break from applying to jobs, just because it makes me more stressed than I need to be. I've been on "break" since my last midterm on Thursday, and have yet again skipped class today-I have lecture notes, but mainly due to laziness. On the other hand, I'm definitely looking forward to this winter break! I just booked tickets to NY with carol and co_lightning in January! I'm so excited..thus looking forward to winter break and not really focusing on what I need to get done now..*sigh*.

Maybe this phase will go over after these couple of days. On the other hand, I suggest everyone watch Black Gold , a documentary about the coffee trade and fair trade.. .which can probably be better stated with an excerpt from the movie summary,

As westerners revel in designer lattes and cappuccinos, impoverished Ethiopian coffee growers suffer the bitter taste of injustice.In this eye-opening expose of the multi-billion dollar industry, Black Gold traces one man's fight for a fair price

It's surprising that many people always think of oil when thinking of the commodities market, but coffee is actually the second most traded commodity in the world, and coffee farmers get the least reward for the coffee they make! These days I've been almost obsessed with development topics-mainly due to my global poverty class. I'm glad I'm taking it though, really eye-opening and makes me feel guilty that I live in such a privileged society but thankful and appreciative at the same time that I do. Next book that I'm looking forward to reading? The Bottom Billion  . Another book about poverty- am I just depressing myself reading all these development books? Not necessarily, I find the topic interesting and as a aspiring development economist, I find that the more I can learn now about it, the more I can try to look into ways of helping. Although it seems so hopeless at times, better to try and make a difference than just being apathetic. Or maybe, I'm just too much of a dangerous "Berkeley" idealist (what some call the "Berkeley Mafia"); one who thinks she understands what the poor need and impose her western world view upon them rather than realizing what they truly need. I hope that never happens.

I'm currently taking a break from studying-I've so much to catch up on! So these past week has been super hectic, between recruiting, work, and school, I've barely enough time to take a breather. But I'm glad that it's busy-sometimes I feel like time passes by too slowly. On the other hand, I get super anxious about time passing by so fast and then graduating and then truly growing up! It's so weird to think of myself as a senior in college now..and having to graduate and move on to the real world. Simply strange. My plans have drastically change and I've really no idea what I'm going to do in my 1-2 years before grad school.  Well I'm thinking...east coast for sure..how to get there? not sure.