After a night of brooding, I realized that yes, I do have a future, no matter what....*sigh* I don't know why I get depressed over such things so easily. Maybe it's always the pressure and my own pride and ambition getting to me. I realize that yeah, I'm really not that hard of a worker and I would probably enjoy life much more if I didn't have to work so hard? hahaha, oh the irony. Actually I'm not even sure if I want to do what I plan to do, I guess we'll see in the next two years. Everything just seems so frustrating to me now, gah. I think I'm in one of those moods.  I just can't seem to get over them, no matter what everyone else says. Trusting God is so HARD for me, and I feel like I'm being tested now , and I feel like I'm miserably failing that test. I wish things were easier- why am I so emo all the time?